elemental

i think it's funny how sometimes the smallest things can change your day. i had dinner with an amazing friend last night (love you gretchen!) and got to have breakfast with another amazing friend this morning. the smallest interactions can always have the biggest impact on me. this morning i just got to love on a friend who was in a really hard place and really needed that. we just got to sit and talk and catch up for a couple of hours. she's struggling with her beliefs about life and god right now, and one of the things i mentioned to her was that the only times i am ever completely convinced of god's existence beyond a shadow of a doubt, is when i get the chance to love on people. i think that's what god designed us for. and i think when we love people, we fulfill everything that we're meant to be. it's in those moments that you just see god so clearly. so i mentioned that to her, and now i'm sitting here at home realizing that i'm having one of those moments of clarity. i got to spend some good quality time forgetting myself and just loving a fellow human being. there's something so important in that. something so vital to our existence. i think god perfectly orchestrated it that way. whenever we forget ourselves and make the people around us the focus of our attention, something unbelievable happens. something within ourselves transforms and shifts. whenever i love on people, i am able to love god so much more clearly and attentatively. maybe because i understand him just a little bit more. all god does and is, is love. and i think when we love we get a clearer glimpse of who he is and why he does what he does. sometimes it just blows me away. so simple. so mystical. so profound. so.... right. it's something that reassures you that there is both good and right in the world, and that both of those things are completely of god and come only from him.

daddy, i need to listen to you more often, teach me how to love all the time. i'm in for this journey. for life. please just do this with me, so that we may be the journey together. i love you. i'm learning to love as you do.