bring it out.

i'm all jimble jambled tonight. i don't know what's going on with me. my heart is in a million different places right now, and i don't really know where any of them are to be exact. anxiety is getting the better of me. since when does that happen? anxiety isn't my thing. not even close. i'm not even anxious. maybe.... apprehensive? i don't know. i wish i knew what was going on with my life. i wish i knew anything. i hate this feeling. no wonder anxiety often devolves into manic depression. i couldn't get used to this. and i really hope i don't have to.

just let it ride.

a great band once said:

"time won't save our souls.

time won't save my soul."

i need to let that sink in.

and breathe. just breathe.